Friends

So on Wednesday night I went to my friend's staff party with her and met the mother of a boy I could have probably gotten further with (in high school) if I tried. It was a little weird knowing that as I knocked back three strawberry margaritas, but alas I managed to find ways to stop thinking about it. The dinner was nice until the head office bosses got up to make dramatic speeches, and some of them made eye contact with me, as though they had no idea I didn't work there, and to be honest, I'd be surprised if they knew I didn't.

Tonight I keep telling myself I will work up the energy to clean my dreadful house and enjoy some alone time, but I have a serious case of the SADS and I'm really trying to get over it before my grandmother comes up for tomorrow and I must pretend that everything is supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. But my mother is becoming more and more aggressive about me getting pregnant, for some really weird reason and is consistently bringing it up and pushing for it. It's becoming really tiring and I wish she'd just stop. I'm not ready to have a baby, so working towards one right now just seems silly.

I've been tired for almost two weeks. This lung issue is really wearing me out. It doesn't help that it's -19 Celcius today. The humidity is something like 76% making it feel that much colder. I just keep telling myself I only have a week and a half left before two weeks off. I'm so excited to... rest. And sleep.

Last night I somehow managed to get a weird chemical burn/ulcer underneath my fingernail. My friend told me it was a pinched nerve which I totally believed until I woke up this morning and their was a blister against my skin. I had ripped the nail off in desperation last night to see if it would help. It almost felt like a cross between a metal sliver and fiberglass. It makes it hard to use that hand.

I'm home today as I did end up getting what Bink had, which was a viral lung infection that has left me on Prednisone... again. All things considered I'm feeling better today than how I was feeling yesterday, let alone the day before. I do have to go to work this afternoon, but I can live with that since I'm also suppose to go to Binky's staff party tonight (though I don't know how long I'll last.) So now I'm just sorta wandering trying to clean a little here and there to help but I'm so exhausted that all I've been really trying to do for the last three days is sleep.